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On Halloween my wife, daughter, and I made a Jack-O-Lantern at My in-laws house. I almost didn’t do it, between my Job, and significant other, I didn’t have the energy. But am glad we did. We need to do more things like that.

It is no secret that I have medical issues and I am wondering how it affects my wife and daughter. As much as I try to hide it, I know she worries. I hope to live 40 more years. Am I prepared if my life ends short? It’s not something that I anticipate but I can’t see the future.

I am coming down from a week long Crohn’s disease nightmare. I went to urgent care mid-week over chest pains. I caused sorrow. Lord knows the pain I can’t protect her from. She cried that I was going to die, right there and right then.  She asked me between heavy child  sobs, “Are you going to die?”

No, sweetheart. Thank you – I can feel again. I am alive again. You brought me back to life. Why can’t parenting be easier? I wonder on a deeper level that she can feel the vibes? Dogs can, cats can, how can we be sure that people don’t?

Everyone has them from time to time. Today was a bad day. I got a call from the hospital. They called about an incident involving my Dr. and myself. During the previous week, I upset my doctor because I simply asked her to explain why she wouldn’t clear me with the DMV for a handicap placard. She yelled at me and told me, “I don’t have to answer  anything from you! Good bye!”

The day after the initial incident, I emailed her and apologized that I offended her and I didn’t mean any disrespect. I also said I like her as a doctor, and didn’t want to see anyone else.

The next morning, the director of the hospital, and Personnel manager, the head of security asked me to report on what happened.  They told me that I got up and faced her with hostility. I did no such thing. I don’t expect them to believe me, but I mentioned that they could read my correspondence with the formatted emails between us. They said they did.

As a way of punishing me, they said that I would have to have an officer escort me to my doctors appointments. I am afraid that I will lose my insurance. I hope that G-d is looking down on me because I am afraid I am losing my strength.